Another heartbreaking

Why can you carry suicide so lightly. everytime you mention, my heart tore into pieces.
I can choose not to care, but my concern you take it for granted. Once & twice, is never a ending
You told me you understand, but i doubt so
My tears don't leak for granted, they roll for a reason, a reason for you.
I never like crying
If i was the one hurt you so badly,
How can i be the one to make you happy again
i struggle inbetween, maybe im too selfish
Im afraid you might leave me for sure, afraid that you will find a better one.
Im sorry, im not perfect

But

Loving somebody is to let them own happiness
I can't give you
maybe someone else

If death can solve everything

why am i still lingering in this fucking world

i choose to live my life to the fullest,& why can you


People out there stuggling for a breath,strive hard for life.


I did tried to suicide, thats was one year ago. No one knows

end up i hold myself back,at the very edge i was breaking down i almost fall.


But i remember, everyone only have one life, one love, one chance


hope you can


I cant move on whereby all these had just happened like yesterday.
Lullaby didn't bring me to dreams.

the tears, they just roll without control, i couldn't hold them back.


please, i begging for no more misery

i want to be happy.


dont rush me, dont ask me. times will tell you everything.


Rememeber friends are forever, please treasure your cliques