I'm not okay

I vent my angers and thoughts ,never in my life i give my pride away. I'm me, myself, and I
I don't owe anyone a living, same goes to you
I love you, i changed
But you told me you did not noticed
you petty over useless stuffs
I gave in to your attitude
But, mind you
I'm a human being with feelings
You have your own
I have mine too
Mine can be tons more overwhelming then yours
But i know how to control
You can vent all your angers to your friends your family
But not me
Is not because I'm more special than anyone, nor I'm your girl
Is i don't take attitude
I throw them
I never accept them
Don't give it to me
You said I'm crazy
Mind your words

you want respect
please respect people
I apologise for things i have done wrong
how about you?
you only know how to stand for yourself
In wrongs way, in contradicted manner
You are just so ego to admit it
I used to be like you
worst still
but i know this will only drift things apart
but yet you?
Thanks for letting me realised so much
Never,
In my life, i felt so bad and standing for myself
I was in fault, yes i know
But you?
Scold me being crazy
If only you know this word hurt so much
Yes to others or maybe you, is only a word
But to me,
Is from my boyfriend
laugh, never did expect
Never did i scold you whenever we quarrel
But you say let all speech out without thinking

why we end up so miserable

In fact everything was so inside out
Like the outside, we kiss,we quarrel,we break,we patch up
How about the inside? we don't even understand each other needs

I really love you so much till i hate myself. why?
For all the wrongs, i tried to mend it to the rights
For you i change myself, i don't want to lose my own
My rights, my respect.

Once is enough
Le's is sad
why,someone please tell me.
what hurt the most was being so close,having so much to said.
I don't want to cry for you anymore, neither i want to pretend I'm okay