Supperclub= fun=laughter
& YES so sorry damn fucking lazy to blog nowadays
I think I am getting tired of nightlife,
hold on not being tipsy in clubs isn't easy
but you get to meet different people
my crews are fun people esp that bitch, you know fazih
I just love the way he talk & fall anytime anywhere.
at lest his drunk he fall & fall, unlike some.... will teach you like how a teacher teach a student
motherf irritating.
double O tonight with kai and cliques, Solomon damnnnnnnnn ^^
& kai was bloody drunk i guess, i was really sober, but i holddddd on!
had a great fun, & dearest jessica company me all the way.
we had funnnnnn , mimi rey eka & amanda was there as well.
but the night is young , but the party ended at2.30 , something crop up
tipsyyyy, im going bed.tata
Hearts all motherf

I have to mention these, I got this new love to hang around. with cunzhi
sembawang beach is new love
Oh,Im loving supperclub!
yesterday was having party so much crazy with my mates
shuffle shaking all night long, bartop dancing wtf! hahaha
everyone went tipsy
&&&&&&&&& that asshole ran out tipsy but came back with a egg muffin burger
inada and me was laughing like fuck, wati was so tipsy but she can run around searching for fafzi
dex dex dexter was drunk! I took care of him because john told me i got extra love care and patient, wtf . After sending dex home, went to timah to eat, and home sweeeet home!
partyyyyy Wednesday!

Jojo Coco Bobo

I did not went to work,think geisha took over me . heh

& bloodymary he more pop than me already!

*kenken

*xiao san dearest sandy

*gossip

*stars

*drenched!

I have a pic to show, my scappy family

suddenly i missssss my girl xiao san! sandyyyyyy meet up soon ass!
you know what? Bobo miss you more than me!
because he drove you home!

Was so tired from work I swear. & those break dancer was uber cool i swear.
met sarah the old bird of supperclub. hah! she damn entertaining,I like having her around!
&& many staffs are leaving supperclub i assume. management changing & stuff. wt&!@%#$
After work went to find Ivan at social house,nice place with nice Gm and floor manager. Now, should i stay, or should i go. tell me people!
& Now I got this craze over firefighters, you know that damn show?! haha
oh ya,dexter say i dont smile, you know why? because i can smile like a idiot, grins
goodnight im going to bed is 9.30am & i have to work later
tatas, & hearts all over the world

如今想反悔 誰人肯諒解

I stand from where I fall,
but there isnt any hand to hold me up
My best mate came back from her holiday, but she doesn't know how much i miss her & need her. I didnt know she meant so much to me, because she never failed to cheer me up.
Now, what is left unsaid .

It just motherfucking doesn't pay to be kind
& fuck off stop haunting me, and even in my dreams
I want to shake shake away from these stress
working tomorrow, Im already damn tired.
mentally torture soon or later I will fly off from my building

Have you ever really see a fallen star
heard me cry tonight
don't you ever let it go don't you ever let it show
I will cry you a sea of love
The star will always shine

Was roaming around without direction,till i called yuan for supper. Hanqiang brought me chocolate & sweet to cheer me,Thank you v much. & ah chen make his way to meet me for a chat & off back to his camp. Actually was suppose to head down to sembawang, but was rather lazy. so i sat alone and linger for awhile, till Jojo came and rescue me from this stalker. I was siting down alone & i noticed this asshole kept cycling around me, & finally he went up to me and start talking alot of rubbish, I was afraid & scare actually so much wanted to wack him, I sms yuan for help. but inreturn he took me hrs to reply. & just nice Jojo ride pass for rescue, that motherfucker saw jo and off he hid behind the wall. Wtf?

was sleeping the whole day,till I decide to meet cliques for supper.
everything is still the same, like how the way I am feeling now.
things will eventually change, but the fact is can never be change
yuan told me alot of things today, regarding about his problems, I felt really sad for what he is going through, like I am not worst but the lest.
They ask me to stand up from where I fall, those negative remarks about how i take things for granted really hurts alot, but I cant change the fact, from the way i react and the way i behave.
Yuan be happy or sad, you know Im just a call away if you someone to talk to.
I only realised things 2 years later, realised I am such a sorry for myself.
learn along the way, learn how to grow.
Don't predict, never believe, never trust what you assume.
now i need to learn from the hard way
sorry for every emotional post, I only can divert my feelings into words now.

& PLEASE,dont fall for me. Im not someone whom can change your life, I will only bring you misery
move on, don't bother to care please, thou i appreciate
I am what it takes.

有些情緒 是該說給 懂的人聽

I hold on today, I did not shed
I tried so hard
at the point of breaking down, i hold myself back
I did not choose to end it that way, i still have a long way to go
I met someone, someone whom tore me apart two years ago, he changed into
another soul whom make me felt so disappointed. maybe he is happy this way.His never ending
thai topic pissed me off eventually.
I met cunzi, the only one whom stay true and pinpoint all past
dont mention about it anymore, i dont want this kind of life.
I wont mention i will forget about everything include those happy & sadness
Is my bad, i brought this to myself i blame no one
move on lechelle,
Im trying.
apologise for those whom said they care,
sorry to doubt, i'll never want to trust

Crying makes me heartache
sleeping dreaming of our past existence
suicide Im afraid to the place i will be going
pills don't help
crying like a river is pointless
Siting waiting wishing
again & again I hope to be set free
don't torture me anymore
i am going berserk
No matter how sad am I
I wont shed,
but how long can I bear

Everyday trying hard to find a good excuse to stop myself from thinking
but there will be a day when i have no more excuses for myself
when you know everything is over, it is o v e r but yet I choose to linger a little bit more
Im sorry for the past , I have a past you never want to know
but it takes time for me to move on to my future
time don't heal that tormented heart it only bring in more memories add on with misery's
& again I doubt this
this time Im seriously hurt
for all the bad & the bads i chosen
Im sorry I just to end everything will a kiss
maybe emotional does kill
If only i worth something,
and only forever is not a word
but something that really mean lasting

Was fucking drunk last night i swear
rey got me lychee martini & sex on the beach
Sebastian got me vodka redbull
& i forgot what shots i had with syed
2 mates leaving supperclub,aww boring.
the bouncer damn horny i swear, and neither i look sexy in white, because is real disgusting
mates over there is damn cool, shall take a group pic and show you guys
iqbal was asking me am i drunk, like obviously wtf. took transport home with them
4pm later at palawan beach, should i join them later or sleep?
oh & i puke for 1 hour randomly,
by the way finally meeting my sissy for lunch. something bad happen to her, but no worries okay
i'll be there for you. Hold on to me baby!
Im getting older each day with life consist of drink drank drunk
anyone really care about what I'm going through?
& whythe fuck no one save me yesterday!
all said will be there for me, where the hella you people go!


Hope you are doing fine

Sandy sissy called me today telling me that somebody back stab me again
seriously like what the fuck okay, LIM BU NEVER OFFENCE YOU
why the fuck you can't stop your shits about me?
you think you fucking pretty is it?
yeah, so what i've go a stuck up face
its my face, you got problem with it?
I seriously feels so pissed off , fucking bimbo whom think highly of herself
wanna create more trouble come find me man.
once is enough, you gave it twice
I fucking never owe you a living
& for the sake of sandy i don't want to create troubles
since u so aren't happy about me come and talk straight to my face
fuck it
don't insult people like everyone owe you a fucking shit

Work is uber tiring today,lucky floormates and bartender and nice people
was semi tipsy after work due to too many liqours
& thanks ivan for the teaching
head of to bankok thai to find jj ah hua adeline
went to geylang to have thai food
damn shag
home sweet home
work again
get a life baby!

I woke up by our past existence. Im so tired of it

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Should i go Australia, or stay in Singapore
with me without me no difference

Rebel Attica Zica
Boat q with Jess,Jj,& wang
Saw makoto, & biggest surprise alive, he is so slim now
went to oasis to look for jaqueline
& I saw ah keong
Got a uncle clap for my singing ^^
5/10 is stupid because i lost to jj
saw a familiar face, not to mention
I dont want to link and think about it
Friday & sat working @ supperclub
10-4am
shag like f
jaq asked me intersted in working in oasis
should I ? should I not
Im learning Thai
& Who says Im happy?
deceiving is not a way to solve every single pain
but what more can I do
happy or not I still like to move on

What hurt the most was being blinded up back my mistakes
I know nothing is true, but I choose to decieve myself
Now, Im left with nothing, a broken string attached to a broke heart
they dont link anymore, neither i want it be link
Never fall for a girl like me
it will be the biggest mistake
because i've never been true to myself
I hope I can run away from all this shits Im going through
In the first place, why am i save?
they should dump me somewhere far away,
dump my corpse, not me being alive lingering in the dark
I brought myself into this state, but I know I am never forgiven
I doubt, does God exist this time round
I close up,
Hope misses don't kill me
hope my liver report is a negative
& goodbye to all those whom i used to own
you people know nothing.

& i fucking hate you, dont say you care when you fucking don't

Jojo is the best crap on earth
best entertaining award
he never failed to make me laugh

Friends i have have alot
those whom stay and those who talks
I know them best


Heard wang said there is something call kunmani
girl version of kumantong
Im thinking of something now, what about a guess from you?
old school, too much thaiclubs = too addicted with - walking in the sun

Are you looking for something new?

something different & unique?

Something like you never try before

someclubs like

supperclub

Fresh friday

Launch party

Dad brought me to doctor today. Had a blood test to see does my medication infected my liver,
hopefully not.
so sick of love song so tired of tears
so done with wishing , you're still not here

Everyone is getting sick
Lynn get well soon okay love
& I like your stupid drawing on msn
think i caught a cold, sneezeeee
went to find Jessica yesterday night
I dont know why the f she ask me eat bananna in canto
maybe because i asked her to eat shit.

f-king tired.

Work on 8.00 pm ended at 1.30am

Finally Ivan working on sat ,at lest someone i know

but no worries the crews are real nice.

bartender mimi always ask if i am able to cope.

chief is nice to talk rubbish with, whenever he start his !&@^ f

was working at bar rouge with dexter, lucky he help me with all the orders

oh yeah, i saw my friend. but i forgot his name .- he damn sexy with his killer heels!

&, not to mention before fine dinning is over, this motherfucker make a hell for me

& i told manager about he, what he say was " fuck care him"

like lol.

okay enough of work

thanks bar mate charmine for your pants.

badminton all over the club

working on Friday again

after club, i cab down to city plaza to find Jessica and co

was doing shuffle with daniel, like wth he pour water on the floor to make it slippery!

headed to boatq for another session.

didn't know it was a farewell for daniel, as he is going for his further studies at Australia

lucks okay! see you in 3 years later, or maybe dec (:

I'll give u surprise duet again

the cliques are real sad when it comes to leaving, after all is their bestmate.

they couldn't control anymore, and they shed goodbye.

overdue bangkok thai pictures

SUPPERCLUB
my first day
5.30 reached
1.30 ended
The bartender & floormate very duper nice & friendly & ofcourse
lucky i've sandra to guide me along
was really nervious at first
my very first time
overall working nightlife isn't as fun as i think
forsake of money rolling, i have to endure
when you know money rolling
they stop me thinking



head to bangkok thai to find jojo & cliques
Sandy dearest came over to find me
sooooo nice yeah she choose me in the end! xoxo
bangkok thai very crowded/boring/
Jojo damn weak abit abit giddy
sandy and bobo entertaining themeselves with dice
&& i am the zhangfeng of the night
5/10 win
black white guess -win
dice - 1/6 win
hohoho stupid you people
cause uhm a luckystar

& bobo, so nice uh... send my dear girl homeeeeeeee with your
car uh..
asshole!
_l_ ^^

WILL UPLOAD pictures asap
Went over to Jessica place to get white top
wtf serciously never in my life i dress up all white
but, later on the theme is white. no choice.
lucks for work!
I feel like puking
but i didn't ate anything

I felt so lost,
so not independent.
I forgot my BTT today
because there use to be this voice keep remind me what to do and what am
i suppose to do
now, I have to stand alone to pass the whole stupid car theory.
oh ya thanks jeschwaz for helping me to re- book.

Wish me luck for work tomorrow.
end work at 3am, should i go bangkok thai to find jojo & bobo or go home sleep?

&
Ivan told me if who intend to bully me he will come for my rescue
whoo hoo!

Suppose to meet sandy today at town, but oveeeeeerslept hehe,so sorry girl ^^
& tomorrow will be meeting cunzhi, like finally after yearsssss since I ever last saw her
my cliques are back from their trip, whooo hooo! hope they enjoyed.

&, I finally got a job.
sorry nightlife again
supperclub @ Odeon tower
A very groovy and classy club
hope to have a good start
& Ivan brother was complaining about his pay lower than me
because he got me in & my pay was even higher than his. oh so sorry
i owe you a big time




Jeref I apologise for the promise i broke, will make it up okay
& dont petty i know you not that petty (:



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Can someone tell me what is the meaning of real free?
Is it an excuse
or a reason
I'm confused
I'm sad
No ones make me happy


should I work in supperclub?
nightlife , Tony & guy academy or rot?
And peeps, dont compliant how bad or how suck your job is when i don't even have one.

Old picture of mine, but this is how stupid i look in bangs.
yes again, i cut it over again
uh whatever hair doesn't matter anymore
somehow somewhere I am miss my cliques.
&. ........ .... .. ....

how would you feel if someone you hopping to see for long ride pass you without knowing your existence?

I wanna scream for him
but,
he's gone
like how he left.

He said, for you (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=laS4KzmNIs4&feature=related



I smile from my heart

This is so ramdom, but thanks jeref for those words. since nothing last forever than I think is time to stop lingering around .

Now I know, maybe you got someone better off than me aready.
I live my life with no trust no faith no love.

yes, stop asking. & please dont start a motive to mention the name every now and than
so what we are not together anymore.

what's the problem with you!

Fire in her eyes
the way she move got the fire in her eyes


To my sissy, enjoy your genting trip alright,& please remember to take good care of yourself!
&& lynn your said you will get me LV . lol!


Benji, this is for you
so sorry, i changed and realised this too late.
thou it doesnt seems to be the good side
but so sorry
labels money not love please

I Know I am forgotten
05119
8 months.

♥ ving you

SEVEN YEARS

Yesterday was so last min, was suppose to meet budd for supper, end up company Jess to city plaza then to oasis. At first felt abit strange as the cliques she hang together was her brother friends, but soon as the night goes on, they are damn funny. I met this new sister, she taught me alot of things in one night, yes, we girls must learn to be smart in ways! & the shit thing is I even left my keys in her bag, but it doesn't matter because I went home like 7.30 am, maid was already awake. & ya, oasis crowd was good with music and techno dancer I assume. & somehow Jessica brother Jia jie was so random, I don't know who told him I can drink, and he start asking me to finsh his every cup of half. I did not end up tipsy & start puking, I end up bladder unable control. wtf-

On the way home In the cab I couldn't stop my kpkb,

firstly, the bobo cab uncle took a hella long way

secondly, Jia jie and I both bladder going nowhere

but end up I stop at kiosk, and release myself.

& Israel tiew sms me early in the morning asking me for jobs

when he always visit his sabai and night club, get a life

tired,. Im too used to pink dowsy everynight.
soo used to it.
yesterday was on the phone with sandy,
conversation was so true, humans beings are always selfish on the other side.
I don't know why,she said true friends you need 1 or 2 . doubts
something very uncomfortable happened, at the moment I am thinking who will be there for me
I thought of Benji, but he is way too far from me . This is getting hopeless. -.-

There is this little something living within me, who is she?


Still very unique

Thank sis for the the changes, haha sorry to trouble you when I finally decide to change my skin but to square. should I go town to meet cliques later or stay at home and rot.
life is so deep and meaningless.
Not only life, when it comes to Love is even worst.

Thanks, now I realised I am such a fool.