I couldn't sleep. I can't forget the face telling me you were leaving, Its been 2 months I last saw you. till now, I still think of all the sorrows, I tried to move on, but i was held back by every little memories that lingers. I want release my tears to the place where we first met. I am not happy at all, I just want to break away from everything. I am sorry, I am really sorry. I cried till my voice they go numb, I scream for you till my lungs they sore. I just want a chance to be seen.
How much misses, how much it can never be estimate. I run away from the fact, from the true. But long can i go. I am not standing from where i fall, I fall even harder whenever i stop myself from crying. Didn't I know i could be so weak in your hands. I was blind to give up, not to even see what is good for me. I left with nothing. I feel like dying away from all these shit I am going through. Now, thou there are many people whom claim they concern about me, but do you know what i want, what i actually need? I need you so badly. There is this deep cut within me, this hole that dig me real deep.I am not seeking for attention, I have nobody to turn to, a sec they might be there for me, a min later they are gone. Who really stay for my sake? When I am having fever having so many pain in me, how wish you will be here. But I know you won't . you will never be there for me again. Time never heal, time never change. Everything is still the same, the old lechelle wants to be seen new again.

I miss you