Lechelle had a talk , the hidden truth.. that hurt me badly dead.
I had a good crying.

2nd part of birthday.

went to brother house early in the morning, played with my little girl ruixin and share the brownie brought by my clique 5 to my family. And margie my maid cook me bee hoon, she told me she didn't cut those bee hoon, as for longevity. haha! so coool. its been a while since i celebrate with my family.. pretty heart warming thou. During noon, sis in law drove us to town to get my birthday present. wooh! little ruixin was very happy..start smiling none stop. Mum & Dad brought me my burberry bag, sis in law brought me heels from Charles & keith. sooooo happy

caah came over to town to meet us, and back to brother house. oh, amanda and will i am, came over to find us. like everyone is very tired so we did nothing much just chill in my room. we had KFC haha! Till dad arrived in the night, we had our family dinner & cut myyyyyy birthday cake. duh i forget to take pictures .. =( but its okay.

Overall, thanks for everything!xoxo

20102009

The day which i have been supposedly waiting had finally arrived.. maybe it might just be another birthday but.. never mind. I thought i might just sleep through on my birthday, but i just couldn't stay at home. I went out and have a stroll till i found a place to chill and smoke. This is the part where.. my cliques they show me love. I was really surprised, didnt i expect them to turn up infront of me like 12am sharp? I almost tears when i see jeshua & his gf, next my dearest caah & xavier holding my birthday brownie towards me and that very nice bouquet of roses. This is so heart warming i swear upon. smses coming in greeting me & stuffs like this just make me so happy. Next Ah dong mark her words & came down to my place.. & you know what? when i open my door.. i saw her parents holding another cake and a bottle of Mirrool creek, second time which i almost tears.. never did i realised that this birthday could be so heartwarming. Thou there isn't any parties like the previous years.. but i appreciate for everything i had. Thanks for being there for me. Iloveyou people!

Thanks for all the birthdays wishes i had!

Now I am officially 19. Time to be sensible? or maybe i should start thinking when I am 18? ..

Well..

Happy birthday to me!

sad or not i will be happy..

like what you guys said. life is short, better keep me smiling xoxo.

My birthday is coming :( i bet this year won't be any happening one.
sis & cliques asking me how to celebrate & even random people whom we don't contact anymore..like .. i don't know? happy enough to received a bag from dad & mom.
life is a daily routine which drive me nuts

My click five...

they are my ultimate sunshine which shine me warm and laughter

yesterday was suppose to meet up at zirca, but it crop up to be some lesbian parties which all of us got abit pissed off & decide to go neither zouk or double O .. but we ended up in attica.

free bottles of jin liqueur makes us go gaga, we just couldn't stop silly games through out the night. very nice of our supperclub guy whom treat us his bottles. geee gee

& we saw alot of CMI shufflers..xavier told me this is skill, till i know this is the most ugly one. like what the f ? After club, we headed of to boatquay. As usual .. 12 element. the waitress is very nice.. i mean this particular one haha! & now im having hangover -.- geee

When it comes to reality, think god is making a fool out of myself.
something you yearn so long is back after a long period & is gone within sec. how would you feel?
I'm trying hard to be myself, but when i see myself in such pathetic state, i shed for myself for being such a fool.why bother to linger the pain which should even exist in the first place. Yes i did made mistake which you people think that it shouldn't be forgiven, but what is done cannot be undone, and nobody is perfect. If you're trying to be a saint out there, then you might need to try harder. stop taking me like a fool, i don't owe anyone a living, don't take me for granted or any substitute. i had it once i had it twice, now i had it way to enough. fucking spare a thought for me, i got feelings that will make me sad. but to be strong i choose to bottle it all up, till one day i really breakdown.. i will shake everything away and fly. please, don't torture me anymore..this feelings just suck to the core. I'm not emotional or being annoyed. I'm dying soon from this slow lingers which kept my heart bleeding . Don't try to bring me down anymore..

'Cause nothing seems so truth When I'm beside you And my dream Of all thing is all in my hand Naked, perfect, so beautiful You turn me up and down I was spinning round and round You never get enough, baby you don't You're a shining star .

Life is meaningless, I wanna grasp for a breath.
don't drown me anymore